Here is the Real Issue of this years Elections

DUTCH SHEETS:"During This Election: THE STAKES COULDN'T BE HIGHER"October 27, 2008With the upcoming elections 8 days away, satan has worked hard to deflect attention off of the real issue. This has been relatively easy through the economic meltdown and an unpopular war. Many Americans, including Christians, will vote based on these two issues. While these things are obviously important, they pale in light of the real issue - the Supreme Court.The cover story of USA Today, on Thursday of last week, spelled this out quite clearly. It stated that the real legacy of the next president won't be the economy or the war, but the Supreme Court. The next president of the United States will appoint at least 2, and maybe 3, Justices in his first term. If he serves 2 terms, it could be 5 Justices - there are 5 of the 9 on the Court that are 70 years old or older!Since the trend is to appoint younger and younger Justices, the next president will most likely shape the court for the next 30-40 years! This means we are not voting only for a president, we are voting for the Court we want for the next generation! The vote we cast on November 4th will do more to shape the culture we give our children and grandchildren than any other vote of our lifetime!Perhaps some succinct bullet points will help us see this clearly:• Without question, no institution, organization, or agency has shaped the current culture of America in the last 50 years more than the Supreme Court. You don't need millions of people, the majority in Congress, or the president to shape the culture of America. You only need 5 people - the majority of the Supreme Court. Five people can kill 50 million babies (the number aborted since Roe vs. Wade), legalize homosexual marriage, remove parental rights, put God out of schools and government, rob from us our godly heritage, etc.• It is now split - sometimes 5-4 toward life, family, morality, our godly heritage, the intent of our forefathers when they wrote the Constitution; sometimes 5-4 toward death, immorality, legislating their beliefs from the bench, removing God from our nation, etc. (though not their constitutional role or right, this is easy - they simply say the Constitution is a fluid, living document and therefore must be changed to accommodate the times).• 2-3 Justices will retire over the next 4 years - their replacements chosen by the next president; possibly a couple more will step down 5 to 8 years from now, making it 5 potential Justices that could be appointed by the next president if he serves 2 terms. This will determine how the Court rules for a generation.• The first 2 Justices to go will almost certainly be Stevens who is 88 years old and Ginsburg who is 75 and ill. They are the 2 most liberal and are no doubt waiting to retire, hoping for a president that will replace them with 2 more liberals. These two replacements alone, if they are good, conservative judges could shift the Court toward righteousness for many years.• Conclusion: our vote this November 4th will be not for a president, not for the economy, not for ending our involvement in Iraq. Our vote will be for what we want America to look like 40 years from now!The ramifications of this are staggering! We are no doubt reaping great judgment now in America - diseases, family breakdowns, violence, a death culture, destructive weather, and much more - because of abortion alone - not to mention expelling God and His laws from our schools and government.I don't know that we can survive another 40 years of this without completely losing our godly heritage and destiny. The economy will recover and the war will end no matter who is elected president - but this is not the case with the Court and the soul of this nation.If you don't know where the candidates stand on the Court and the kind of Justices they would appoint, read the USA Today article. It makes their positions very clear.Share this information with every friend and acquaintance you have. And finally, pray like never before for God's will to be done in this election. We CAN win this war and we MUST NOT lose this war. Pick up your Word, go to war and let's make history together.Here are some practical suggestions to consider:1. Fast (a meal a day; a day this week; a Daniel fast; 3 days; TV; etc.) and spend the time praying.2. Agree in prayer with someone everyday for God's will to be done.3. Hold nightly prayer meetings.4. Take time in every gathering to pray. (Take 15 minutes in every service to pray for the elections. Turn an entire service to harp and bowl style intercession - worship and prayer combined.)5. Join 2 or more friends on a conference call and pray for 15, 20, or 30 minutes.6. Pray on the way to work (and on the way home).7. Pray before you go to sleep.8. Pray before church services.9. Ask God to give you His strategy - He will!For God and Our Great Nation,Dutch Sheets Dutch Sheets Ministries Email: ministryinfo@dutchsheets.org If you would like to hear Dr. Sheets' interview on the 700 Club with Pat Robertson and Terry Meeuwsen on 10-23-08, where he challenges us to pray for the Supreme Court, click here.

My husband is so sweet and also he is a huge fan of our little orator. She is so cute when she is trying to talk. She puckers her lips and kind of squints her eyes and boldly makes the cutest little coos that I have ever witnessed. I love it! Thought I would share them with you. Life has been crazy, yet I have had some great revelation and times of joy that I will share when I can sit down and write about it. But for now feast your eyes on my little up and coming prophetic song bird.

Great Video

I saw this video first on a blog page that I read through another blogger page. It is a catholic video but I think that it is phenomenal. Check it out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61wj4tJICcc

Home Away From Home

Steven and Shiloh often come to see me in the wee hours of the night as I scurry around my office in the basement of the children's home that I work at. Often times around 9:30pm or so I am not too busy and aching for my little love bug. About once a week they come and hang out for about 30 mins and I get a little fix that last me through till 11pm. Silly maybe but since we only live about 7 min. away and Steven likes to see me as well it is a nice break in our busy lives that we take and enjoy each other and our new little mini Cooper. Here is a little video that Steven sent me from his phone the other day so that I wouldn't be so lonely.

Isn't she adorable in motion!

An Opportunity To Give & Receive

My friend Tracie who happens to be our adoption guru, is knee deep into her second adoption. Their family is trekking into uncharted waters as they adopt internationally specifically for a boy with down syndrome. I am so excited for them as well as so grateful to her for all that she does. She helps families everyday through her adoption consulting business and brings little ones to their forever family. She is honest, hard working, smart and kind. Her kids are amazing and way to talented for their own good. I am shocked and so would Obama be at the distribution of talents into one family. :-)
Nick their oldest son is an amazing photographer and has decided to put those talents to use for his families adoption. He is offering photo sessions to families and individuals for a minimum donation of $75. All the proceeds go towards their $20,000 dollar adoption cost and you receive a cd with all your photos. If your donation is higher, well there are more items in your package. I think this is a great idea and I know that you will be satisfied with the pics that he takes. Go to http://tracieloux.blogspot.com to see how you can schedule your session and help bring home little Aiden.

A Positive From The Internet

Technology to me is a blessing and a curse. So much information at your fingertips, yet not enough people with discernment viewing it. The sky is not the limit anymore because in 5 seconds and a google search engine your imagination and curiosity can be appeased at the click of a button, both for good and for evil. History, geography, science, and math can all be explained through educational websites. In just the same manner however pornography, witchcraft, gluttony, and greed are like open sewers in the streets of cyber space that trap so many and so easily. This year I have learned to blog on the Internet as a great way to keep friends and family updated and also to meet new people from all over that share our passions. I have learned a great deal about several nations that have been devastated by natural disasters and have seen the good that the war in Iraq has brought to some of the people there. My friend Jennifer was doing a search on Myanmar after the cyclone of May and an ad to "buy Myanmar girls cheap" popped up on her screen. Children and woman are traded over the Internet like baseball cards and sold into a life of slavery in every kind of wickedness possible. Teens find sites that encourage suicide as an alternative to "this void existence", and married adults find websites for adultery to fill what is lacking in their own relationships. All this at the click of a button that is our world now. Could the U.S. and other nations thrive without the Internet now? Are we so addicted and embedded in it that we would fall if it was "disconnected"?

In the midst of all the muck there is a silver lining. I am sitting at work going through some emails and thought, "man my office is so quiet". I logged on to my favorite website and with a few clicks of a mouse I am listening to worship to our God that never stops. Sweet communing with Jesus through singing His words back to Him with the a tag of I love you at the end. It is the Prayer Room web stream and it is wonderful. It is Sunday and I will be watching Forerunner Christian Fellowship (IHOP's Congregation) in about 20 min. , all while charting and filling out lab requisitions. Now how on earth would that be possible any other way except through the Internet? It is refreshing and my spirit is lifted beyond the confined of my tiny office and I feel connected. It is a simple way to worship throughout the day, no matter what you are doing. You find your self humming to the music and repeating the choruses that are whispers of love to the One who is Love. The web stream is maintained by your $10 or $25 dollar donation every month. For that small price you get 24/7 worship and Word in your home, office, car, and wherever you are that Internet is available. It should be one of the 7 wonders of the world that intercession and worship is going out 24 hours a day, 7 days a week anywhere there is Internet access. I have heard of missionaries in Norther India who wake up at 4am to listen till 6am when they start their day. Closet watchers in Islamic nations who cannot hear the Word of God any other way, and the underground church in China that silently sings along with fellow brothers & sisters in worshipping the One who is worthy. Yes this is a bright light in the midst of a sea of darkness that we are so plugged into. A positive from a source of so much negativity. I am blessed and if you would like this positive feed in your home, office, or wherever you are go to http://www.ihop.org/ and click on the banner that says "24/7 Worship", you will glad that you did.

International Visitors

When people hear that you are adopting or that the baby that they are in awe of isn't biologically yours they are instantly drawn to your story. It is because in all of us is this mystery surrounding "wantedness". Why would you adopt a baby that isn't yours? Why? It is the whole in our hearts before we know the Lord, this longing to belong but a feeling of disqualification on every level. The unknown inner knowledge that we are in need and only One can bring us wholeness. All throughout the New Testament the Bible says we are adopted through the blood of the cross into the household of Heaven. We cry Abba, Father because we are no longer strangers but sons and daughters. It is in all of us because we were created for communion and without it we feel empty.

Soooo... when a couple in Canada, whom Steven met on a Onething, started reading our blog and following our adoption story their hearts were instantly connected. They love Jesus and are involved in the house of prayer in Winnipeg, Canada. (where Winnie the pooh originated) They prayed for us, gave to us, and told others about us. They recently got a chance to visit KC and stayed in our home for a week. It was so fun to finally meet after blog talking and emailing for months. They had sent presents via their sister before Shiloh was born and now she was here and they were getting to "squish" her for themselves. Prayer's made real in the flesh of an innocent baby snatched from the fire by their cries to the Father. It was an amazing time and their hearts melted as they relished their time with Shiloh. Our week with them was a wonderful time to get to know one another and to laugh at how similar we are yet separated by so much distance.

Kristi Farrow is a labor and delivery nurse who longs to be in the house of prayer but is for now in the market place. This role makes it possible for her husband,Shane, to be in the house of prayer full time along with raising support (We feel your pain). I am a nurse, however not in L&D (no thank you) though I work with children and love it. I long to be in the house of prayer full time, yet know the tug of the market place. I try ,as does Kristi, to see how God is moving in my life through my job and the people that I meet. Steven is in the house of prayer full time and knows that is where he will be till Jesus splits the skies , as does Shane. They live life simply, surrounded by friends who share their "Anna Calling". We too are in a community of comrades that love the house of prayer and are giving everything, even the comforts of the "American Dream" to do just that.(Theirs would be the Canadian Dream :-0 ) They were friends forever that one day realized that their friendship was more than friendship and they like us had that awkward first kiss that transitioned them from friends to whatever you call that. We too were very close and then realized that this person who we loved dearly as a friend was the "one". It was weird the similarities between us and I hope that one day we will share two more. Totally healing and adoption!!! Come on Farrow's!!!! :-)

Any who, here are some pics from our neighbors up North and our little angel boo.

Kristi and Christina from Winnipeg,Canada

Shane Farrow with our little bug a boo.

What Does Pro-Life Look Like?

The other day I took my beautiful daughter to her one month check up at the pediatrician. She is healthy, growing and weights 8 lbs and 9 oz now. It was just over a month that we got the call that our little one was coming into this world. We drove the 5 hours to be there for her first moments and she has stolen our hearts away. Part of the "getting" process of adoption had us driving through Wichita, KS. It is a medium sized city that feeds many smaller towns around it and it is the closest place in that part of Kansas that you can receive an abortion. It is where our birth mother was headed shortly after finding out that she was pregnant and didn't want the baby. Two days after Shiloh was born we drove through Wichita and it hit me, 9 months earlier and she could have died in that city and now she was alive and driving through it. It was a huge testimony to love, courage and also to God. He spared Shiloh through various circumstances and placed her in our home forever. Our prayers in the house of prayer were manifest in God sparing Shiloh's life. I was a Hannah crying out and He delivered to us a "Samuel". Snatched from the fire, our little one stands as a reminded that Pro-Life is more than a banner or a voting stance. It is more than picket lines or hater signs. Pro-life is more than a choice and more than a religious conviction. Pro-Life is a LIFE. Pro-Life is saying yes to life and no to murder.

No matter how the media or left-wing yahoos try to put it, life begins at conception. It is an amazing phenomenon in biology to watch two haploid cells divide in meiosis to form another complete cell. This cell has the capability to differentiate into multiple cells and tissues that form organ systems in a matter of weeks. In less time that it takes presidential candidates to get elected, there is a tiny little life being knit together. This is miraculous! No one can say that a cell that is actively undergoing cell division is dead, that it is none living. That is crap! I am a nurse and have also taught biology.I have seen the inside of a uterus and the processes it takes to prepares for conception and gestation. Those who say that life begins outside the womb have never seen the workings of a female body during pregnancy.At what other point does the human body grow accessory organs such as the placenta other than to support LIFE!

On November 4th so many things are going to change and lines will be drawn in the sand. But it is not Nov. 4th that I am putting my hopes in. People are instruments in the hand of a holy God. My hope is in the fact that intercessors plead the cause of the unborn, the orphan, and this nation before the high courts of heaven and things are moved in the spiritual and natural realms. Intercession targeted at the idols and strongholds of wickedness in our nations is the change that is needed. God raise up more intercessors in this nation; in California, in Colorado, in D.C. come Lord wake up your church to the hour that we are in. Open the eyes of the blind and the ears of the deaf in the church!!!! Jesus hear our cry and turn this nation from wickedness.

Meeting Steven's Family

Last weekend October 3-4th, I went home to Arkansas for my 10 year high school reunion and also so that Steven's family could meet Shiloh. They hadn't seen her yet and one of his brothers is leaving for Japan for a month so I thought it would be nice to show her off to them while I was down. Steven has three brothers ranging in ages from 33 to 23. He is the second oldest at 30 years and the first among them to get married and also to have a child. We are forerunners in our family too. :-)

Here are a few pics from that weekend and their first reactions to Shiloh. My mother-in-law also threw me a little shower with all her friends that have known Steven since he was conceived. I had met some of them at our wedding but hadn't seen them since. It was very nice and thoughtful of them to come and shower Shiloh with love and gifts.

Steven's mom and dad have been educators for over 25 years. His dad Mike teaches at the U of A Ft. Smith campus and his mom, Beth teaches ESL in several location in Ft. Smith. They are great and are loving their new granddaughter.

This is Chris the youngest brother. Shiloh and I stopped in Fayettville to see him because he had to work all weekend. He made me a nice BBQ sandwich and I ate as he ood and awed over his new little niece. It was very sweet.

My sister in law from Winnipeg, Canada with Shiloh. She is married to Steven's oldest brother Jon. They have been married for 3yrs and not quite ready for little ones.

This is Jon, Steven's oldest brother.

This is Peter the "middle" of the 4 boys. He is 26 and single so come on ladies. He is leaving for Japan where he will observe mental health practices there asserting his Psychology degree and then learning a bit of the culture in his spare time. He is the families world traveler, having stayed in Eastern Europe a couple of times, Argentina, and now in Japan for a month. Uncle Peter bring Shiloh home something cool!

Some Welcome Visitors

Since Shiloh has come into our lives she has been blessed to have some great friends come to see her. We also made a trip to Arkansas to visit the grandparents which was a joy. I wanted to share some pics from those moments of friends and family first meeting Shiloh.


Our Friend Sarah & Josh brought Chick Filet and came to see us in Lenexa when we first arrived.















Anna, Kristy,& Hollie came when we got to
Lenexa.




My mom & dad drove up & stayed w/ us at the Banderman's for a night .
This is the firstgrandchild on either side, so they were eager to come to meet her.

Shiloh Turned One Month Old Today!!!!

Today my little princess turned one month old. It is incredible to me that a month ago we were in a small town in Kansas, sitting nervously in the entry way/waiting room of a country hospital to receive the greatest gift of our lives, Shiloh Abigail Cooper. 10:55 am we held her for the first time on September 11th, 2008 and our lives and hearts were changed forever. I will never be able to look back and make sense of my life before Shiloh and now as we look ahead and try to plan for the future it is still a little blurry. One thing that we are sure about is that this little one is sealed in a cocoon of love in the deepest place of our hearts and we are so very grateful to God and our family of friends for her being brought into our home.

Today we decided to celebrate on a spur of the moment idea of a tea party. I sent out emails last night to some friends and we went to the store to buy those yummies that you serve at tea parties. I woke up this morning and with Shiloh strapped to me in the sling we went to town freshening up the house for our guest and my little crumpet stayed awake from 8am till 1pm. I couldn't believe it. She wasn't overly fussy or anything, it seemed like she just wanted to take in the moment. Our guest arrived on time and we brewed some tea and ate little snacks and visited. It was so fun and as Steven is away on a Onething trip it helped with the loneliness. I haven't been that lonely this weekend or this week as we have had awesome guest from Canada staying with us and sharing in the delicacy of "squishing" our little daughter.

After a little while as people were leaving my friends again generously offered their services of babysitting. I am so blessed to have so many to help with Shiloh. I usually don't take advantage but today I took Kristen Schlemmer's offer and hit the gym for an hour. I was feeling sluggish and it gave me the second wind that I needed. I also arranged for Steven and I to have two hours on Monday as Shari will watch her. I love it also because my friends will watch her here at the house, their place, or the prayer room. It is awesome. (Oh for those wondering, Shiloh wears little ear plugs in the prayer room)

After that and a load of laundry we laid down for a little nap and then after a little bottle snack a walk was in order and now we are just sitting back chillin at the house. Dakota is laying lazily on the floor by the couch, Shiloh is in her bouncy staring at the mobile attached to it sucking on her soothie, and I of course am typing away trying to keep fam and friends engaged in our little dream boat world.

Thanks for reading.

I'm Still Here, Just Super Busy

Friends- Forgive me for ignoring you for a few days. Life has been crazy and it is flying by so fast I can barely catch my breath. I went to Arkansas this last weekend for my 10 year high school reunion, to see family and friends, and for my mother-in-law to throw us a baby shower. It was a great time seeing old friends and I loved meeting long time friends of Steven's family as they showered Shiloh with gifts and attention. It was the first time that Steven's family had seen Shiloh and I think she left them with flutters in their hearts. I will down load my pictures and post them hopefully tonight. I got to see my parents and had ice cream with a dear friend, that has walked many long roads with me and is now on one herself. I drove down there by myself, which means that I played single mom for a weekend and I got to hand it to single moms. They are champions!! I was so tired and had to leave at 5am on Sunday due to having to work that morning in Kansas City. As soon as I drove up in my driveway I got called into work. I had to drop off Shiloh with Steven and then go straight to work at 10am after driving 4 1/2 hours. It sucked! I came home and in my exhausted state I laid down with Shiloh and totally slept till around 4:30 pm. The bad part was that I was still on call and missed three phone calls from work. God is good to me though and my boss just sent someone else in knowing that I must have been asleep or something. When I called to ask forgiveness she just said it was OK and asked was I still coming to the baby shower. Yup, another baby shower for Shiloh. My boss is an amazing woman of God and wanted so badly to throw me a shower at work for Shiloh. Two showers in less than 72 hours is funny and almost excessive. But I am so blessed and feel that my baby is super favored of God to receive so much love and attention. So that was all between Friday and Monday. Saturday while I was in AR. our friends from Canada came to our house to stay for a week. I had never met them face to face but read their blog as do they ours. They had followed our adoption story after meeting Steven at last years Onething Canada, and found their hearts stirred. They gave generously towards Shiloh's adoption and are now here getting to love on her. It is awesome! I love getting to know them and wish that they could stay longer. I have had to work this whole week so I feel that I haven't spent much quality time with them. I am actually at work right now, taking a little break to catch my readers up, then I have to get busy as I was left in charge while my boss is in Uganda, Africa tending to the orphanage that she runs. There are a lot of little things that add up when you are left to fill big shoes. I came into work to find the nurse that was on for days left already and I knew nothing of what was going on. The clinic for the pediatrician that was supposed to be done at 8am this morning is still sitting on the floor with scripts that I need to have signed. There is a clinic with the psychiatrist going on and people are paging for the nurse. Not to mention I need to get the heights and weights on 50 kids, all while tending to the little ones that get scraps and bruises. Work is great but I talked to my boss the other day and we are working on a different schedule for me. 8 hours four days a week is so long to be away from Shiloh right now, and though Steven is turning out to be a super dad, it is a stretch for him as well. I can't really do anything until we finalize Shiloh's adoption because right now if I shift hours I will loose her insurance and that is a no, no in the world of finalization. So for now we are here and this is that. Pray for us if you get a chance.

So I have been a little busy and cannot believe that it is Thursday. Any free time that I have had I have taken little naps to try to catch up on sleep. The latter part of the week Steven has 6am sets so I do the night shift of feedings with Shiloh. Last night she was restless and I finally got her to sleep around 1am, afterwards she had mercy on me and slept till 5:30am. Thank you Jesus. So I will write again, love you all!

Our First Case Worker Visit

Wednesday at 1pm our case worker in Kansas City, Susan, came for our first post placement visit. We like Susan a lot she is a nice, christian lady and I highly recommend her services if you are in the KC area and looking to start the adoption process. She has to come in and make sure that we are taking good care of Shiloh, that there are no major issues, and that everyone is bonding well. She asked questions like, "how much is she eating, what type of formula, any medical problems, has she been to the doctor, and so on. Other funny questions like "how many toys does she have are funny to me, yet it isn't a bother like I felt in the beginning of this process. It helps that Shiloh is already ours and I am not asking permission, but just double checking now. All through this process everyone from case workers to lawyers and even our judge have asked us if we are sure this is what we want to do and "now is the time to change your mind if you want". We would have been retarded to get this far a long and say, "oh I don't feel like being a mommy anymore, or no I don't want to rescue a little one". It is just amazing the hoops that adoptive parents have to jump through that most bio parents never take a moment the think on. Sometimes I wonder where our country went so wrong that our social system awards drug addicts custody of children only to take them back a few months later for neglect, and yet people who want nothing more than to love and care for children through adoption must climb high mountains of paper work, endure interview after interview and then wait in faith for your little one to be permanently placed in your arms. It is amazing, really.
I am so thankful to my family and friends for their constant support in prayer and financially giving towards Shiloh's adoption. I am so blessed with a beautiful, healthy, perfect baby girl. I am thrilled to watch my husband holding and caring for this little helpless one with such tenderness. I tear up when someone says oh she is so beautiful. I had nothing to do with that, yet she is mine and I am so proud. I love not saying anything when we are out and people assume she is mine because she looks like me. I know and she will know, but the world can just watch in wonder as two become one. There is an adoption revolution brewing in this nation, and in our little IHOP community. God is changing the "why" behind adoptions to the "why not." People are jumping on planes to adopt twins and families with 7 children are saying "what's two or three more?" It is awesome and I am glad to be a part of this thing that is so close to God's heart. Thank you for partnering with us and continue to pray for Shiloh and us as we are learning how to parent this beautiful little gift.

Sleep, Work, and Life

Today marks three weeks that our lives were forever changed and our hearts expanded as we welcomed into our home and hearts our daughter Shiloh Abigail. She is growing so fast I cry sometimes as I watch her. I want her to stay my small little baby, yet I long for more sleep...so grow baby grow. :-) She sleeps well for a newborn and eats like a champ. She's around 7 lbs and 5 oz. I can tell because her preemie clothes are starting to be a little tight. That's my baby! Today we went to see a dear friend who just brought her daughter in to the world. We always talked about how our daughters would be so close together so I took Shiloh with me to meet her new friend Isabella. That was fun, but later the tiredness of the day and the previous nights hit me as I dropped Shiloh off with dad to get ready for work. I started back to work this week and it has been rough. Not only being away from Shiloh sucks, but also sickness is flowing out of the doors of the children's home right now and I am in the thick of it. I have been working in pediatric for sometime now and have a good immunity built up, however I am nervous about taking it home to Shiloh. We have three kids with strep and one kid with MRSA. ( a super bug) I had drained his abscess Sunday and thinking it looked bad I cultured it and the results came back yesterday and I was like "crap". Fortunately for me I was raised with a mom who was in the medical field. She would come home and we were not allowed to touch her until she had changed her clothes. So true to form I told Steven give me a sec, and I took a shower that night before holding her. I just have to trust that God is her Father and He will guard her.

Life is so good right now. We aren't sleeping a lot, however we are kind and trade off to help the other. Shiloh is sweet and I enjoy just starring at her. I went and got a new car seat today, just in time to drive to Arkansas for the weekend. My in-laws are having a little get together to meet Shiloh and my 10 yr. high school reunion is this weekend. I am not sure why I am going since I hated high school other than I will get to see a few people that I miss terribly. Work is stressful and thinking about how Steven and Shiloh are is a thought that crosses more than once in every hour. I printed off her pictures and have them on my desk. That helps a little. I count the seconds as 11pm rolls over the clock so that I can go home and hold my little princess.
That is pretty much it for now.